music, please.

So, I was supposed to be studying but unff I blame the materials for being so less interesting.

And to prevent me from sleeping, I kinda watch Long Vacation again for the nth time. Which then leads me to search for its soundtrack. HOMG payah giler nak cari but at last jumpe gak, downloading it now. :D

So my point here is, I love artistic people. I love music people *cough*Yoochun*cough*. I heart those musical covers, and I have a very strong biased towards piano. I wanna learn to play piano!! And if somebody dedicate me a piano piece mcm dlm Long Vacation tuh, I'm sure I'll melt into a poodle of goo. :DDDD

Uhu bestnye this song, ufheiushcsjncudcse I need to learn piano. T__T
Yes yes I know I need to wake up into reality, just spare me this time and many more times to come lol

Terase incoherent. Nak p tido jugak tapi tak habes bace tapi whattodo? *dies*
And I'm waiting anxiously for tomorrow presscon. Uh my boys. T_T

Btw, dah 2 hari x bukak YM. It seems less interesting nowadays. So people, anything just Skype me. :)

Okie dokie, I guess I'm gonna go to bed after all.
Walo blom habes bace. I'm so doomed. D:

Toodles~

betik oh betik

ni namenye tengah ngidam
nak makan buah betik..sejuk2 yang baru kuar peti ais tu..
pastu potong2..ngap sajor..lebeh enak jika dimakan bersame family selepas lunch dengan kari kepala ikan di hari minggu ahad yang ceria..
takpun betik yang pakcik depan library awam kangaq jual dengan lori putih tu..ade betik, jambu, ayaq nyok, lengkong, milo ais, tembikai, kopok twisties, air anggur perisa..

T___T
i wanna go home to my beloved buah betik!!

the road taken, and the one that wasnt

kadang2 rasa takut
rasa insecure
for what future holds

kadang2 rasa hopelessly helpless
kadang2 rasa I took the road that wasnt meant to be taken

betul, kalau kite xcube, kite takkan tau
tapi mcm mane kalau kite cube, and we found ourselves in the middle
we went too far already to go back, but yet the road is still long ahead in front of us
what are we gonna do then?

what future has in store for me, for everyone
how, where I will be..we will be in the next 5 years..10, 20 years?
sometimes that idea intrigued me, but most of the time I find it more intimidating than exciting

I hate changes, I hate insecurities
I need someone to be here with me.
Here, really here, right beside me.
and tell me to never lose faith
to keep pushing, and keep holding on
and to never let go
no matter how bad it looks like
how bad it's gonna be
to tell me
to always keep the faith.

dolphinnie

I GOT ME A DOLPHIN PLUSHIE!! <33

yes people, it is that big of an issue that deserves a post in my long-forgotten blog.

.me loves dolphinnie.

buh-bye.

just because :D

1. im so happy today

2. thanks babe :D

3. it's 3:14am and im still up figuring this little shiny green friend of mine! (am thinking of giving him a name..how about Micky? LOL)

4. I love Tea for Two..(Ku, I looooooooooove my story tuh..setiap malam pn bce lantas senyum sorg2 ok..so fluffy..matila puji diri sndri :P)

5. im a hopeless romantic. fin. XD *sile rujuk #4*

6. i need sleep

7. brb when im more coherent

8. i loooooooooooooooove tea for two. have I mention dat already? ^___^

p.s: Tablo said "nothing in the universe can change that. you're like a song on a constant playback"
p.s.s: I'm random, I know that. :D

janji

Haritu, saya ada janji dengan Dia.

Sekarang Dia dah tolong saya.

Saya kena pegang janji tu, smpai bila-bila.

Jaga elok-elok.

Itu janji saya dengan Dia.

Semoga saya dapat pegang janji ni.

Dapat jaga elok-elok.

Sampai bila-bila.

where where

I NEED TO FLIPPIN' WRITE SOMETHING!

WRITER'S BLOCK!

T.T

FOR ALL THE LOVE THAT IS PURE, WHERE OH WHERE
JUST WHERE IS MY MUSE?

p.s: and no, I dont mean writing here. I mean writing somewhere else.

...

never the last cry

As expected, once school started I'm gonna be all mixed up again. Well I expect myself to get emotionally disturb for no obvious reason. I just read many many articles about the Dome stage success, and I'm so proud, got some goosebumps and definitely got teary-eyed.

I listen to sad love songs and got tears in my heart again despite not understanding the lyrics sometimes.

I watch doramas and got teary-eyed again.

I read good stories and I cry.

I look at old photos of me and them (whoever them might be- families, friends, those who crosses their lives with mine) and I got teary-eyed.

I just lay down there and think and sometimes I cry too.

I go by day by day and expect myself to randomly break down every once in a while.

Oh yes that's me. I tend to cry quite frequent, but I dont like crying in front of people. Hence why did I write it here?
And well I cry for various reasons too. So spare me the advice.

Hey it wasnt my fault I have delicate feeling. But dont worry I wont broke the water pipe in front of other people, it's quite uncomfortable for both parties I know.

Just so you know, not everything shown is just it is. There are a lot more to understand of the hidden things. But that doesnt mean the shown ones are fakes, only just it doesnt represent the whole picture.

Does this entry make sense? Perhaps not. But it's for me to understand it and to remember.

And you can see it's rather different than my entries during the hols. Both are me and I remain true to myself.

**
EDIT: I'm feeling better now. Just a few happy songs will do for me. A friend once told me that I'm a person that's easy to get happy (ie. by seeing beautiful things like a field on sunflower, or by listening to happy songs like You are My Sunshine.) Haha yes IAWTC. But I easily gets sad too. Oh well. It's what we call balance equilibrium. LOL :P

D:

whaai? u__u

Oh My God

It's the last few minutes of Thursday, July 2 2009.
Soon it will be 3rd.
And school opens at 5th.

Heaven no.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiii so early? DDD:

Aux Champs Elysées

Just something that I keep replaying today. Still a failure to find its mp3 file though, and its trans. I just know this sing makes me happy, and I'm going to Paris someday!! as a result of watching Bonjour Paris today!

Aux Champs Elysees by Joe Dassin
it's an old song, but yeah I dig old stuff..I heart Alleycats, Carefree etc etc, so this isnt much different LOL

And Dayah, I'll stop you before you can say that you will meet MY crush in Paris someday. :P



EDIT:
found the mp3 and the trans! ;)
hey I was right, it's a beautiful song :D
and I'm going to Paris!!! but I still dunno when T.T

going broke

Well yeah. Urm nothing much to write, but just announcing the fact that I spent around JD*** (3-digits, you go figure the amount OK!) when I went to Amman with cik tembikai on Sunday, and I dont even buy that much! but I was tempted by the varieties of beautiful cards. See my book-crazed friend? The amount is huuuuuge which is why I dont wanna count it in the first place, and I dont wanna check my balance either..Imagination is good you know..LOL xDD

School will be opened on July 5th..ugh I'm lazy already. And the Dome concert will be on 4th and 5th. Stand by U will be released on 1st, AADBSK3 somewhere in the mid of July, and I'm expected to be utterly and completely broke by the end of July (ps. tembikai, I aint buying that towel, despite it's pink! sedehnye!!) *praying hard that PSD's clerk will work extra efficient for August allowance*

To my bestie, I know I seem to be unavailable lately. For no definite reason on top of that. Ughh. Sowieeee! >__<

Another random note, today me and Nisa finished three movies. Spiderman 3, Sweet Home Alabama & Legally Blonde. Yesterday it was Confession of Shopaholic. Tomorrow Da Vinci's Code maybe? Thank you for the supplier :P Am waiting for 1st July for my connection utk laju balek so that bleh mendownload dgn riang gumbire! Sykin, you're gonna get a bulky dose of the boys when you got here with my red i-Pod!

i have a dream

I just woke up..
And had this strange dream ever.
OK not that strange LOL
I was in a flight
and I see Changmin is reading a mag, he's seating sitting at the other side of the aisle, but his facing me..
Haha and I just know that we're heading to BKK for their Miroticon.
Well if I see Min there, that must means I'm in the business class as well LOL
He wears pastel pink shirt, shorts and a hat, and he looks effortlessly gorgeous!
Aah and that's all I remember LOL.

The weird thing is, when I woke up and I checked the updates, their airport pics in Incheon to BKK, there WAS a member wearing pastel pink shirt. Guess who? My Yoochunnie!! ^^ Hahaha so happy LOL xDD And leader-sshi was wearing the hat I saw Min wears in my dream..now that is weird but I aint complaining here ^_^

I guess I was thinking too much abt those who are lucky enough to fly together in one plane with the boys to BKK, and I dreamt about it instead..trase pathetic la plak, but hey a girl can dream right? And I just did, literally too.. :P

And oh, while browsing AKP tadik, read that MJ passed away. Dun listen to him much, but I like his song Black or White. RIP MJ.

Gonna go and fix myself breakfast..
Bye bye :)

P.S I (think) I Love You

Yeap yeap!! I finished P.S I Love You by Cecelia Ahern (who happens to be Westlife's Nicky's sis-in-law) today..haha wayy overdue I know, but hey, at least I finished it. Actually I watched the movie first some times ago, then got to know that it's based on a novel, so when I returned to M'sia last January, finally found the novel and got my dad to buy it bought it, started reading a few months ago and finally finished it today! Pheww, that's a long sentence LOL

I'm the type of person who if I got interested in a book, I tend to look at the ending first before buying it xDD. But not when I bought this one, coz basically I've watched the movie so I thought it has the same ending. Boy was I wrong when I read the actual ending. Should I say kinda disappointed? Dunno. But still it's a nice story :) I still think I prefer the movie though :D

On the other hand, I always prefer the novels if the subject is Harry Potter! (and yes cik tembikai I know I havent finish the last book, probably never will :P). Dunno why but there's always something lacking when I watch the movies, which is why I'm not that keen of HP movies, but who can deny that Dan Radcliffe is such a hottie, rite? And I'm still in love with Snape, so sue me :P

Reading is so much fun, I think I kinda forget about that lately since I got sucked into the black hole called fangirlism. Still feeling bitter about Miroticon in BKK u_u. However got like tons (exaggerating much) of novels to finish, God knows when anyway. Should stop ranting now, I'm off to watch KimuTaku's Change (which is also wayy overdue >__< ). Bye bye :)


EDIT at 6:51PM -- My 8-hour download completely gone to waste coz I stupidly accidentally shifted my lappy a bit and thus cutting of its power supply!! And only 5MB more to be completed!! PLUS all those YT clips that I painfully buffered earlier and havent got the chance to watch!! GAAAAHHHHH!!! >__< *kicks myself*

whaaaaaiii?!

*ahem ahem* Excuse me please.

AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

some people just have all the luck in the world huh?

damnnit!! T____________T

why..doushite..nande..leishhhh?!!

pardon me please at my failure of being a civilized, calm and composed demure lady human in this entry

*points at the blog title and the tagline below it*

*coughcough* I'm off.

and I totally messed up with the large fonts. Heck do I care?

and it's back

Dunno what has gotten into me today, I just decided to revert back to my dorama madness. Actually Yamapi's Daite Senorita (I know, it's kinda an old song already) came up on my playlist, and listening to the song suddenly I thought how I miss this guy so much! :D

So without wasting any time, I skype-d cik tembikai asking for P-chan's new dorama. Well it seems that he hasnt been on any since I left him for my DBSK lol, the last one was Code Blue and that was ages ago (exaggerated much huh?). So after a pointless discussion, it was decided that I will dl P-chan's upcoming summer dorama, Buzzer Beat. Checked up what the story was about, well it's OK I guess, but that comes later. The point is I WANNA SEE YAMAPI!!! *inner fangirl squeals inside*

Thinking of actually making an effort finishing Nobuta and Kurosagi. Again, I know they're old doramas of him but I just couldnt finish it earlier. My neck hurts seeing Maki as Nobuta hung her head so low everytime and I stopped watching Kurosagi bcoz I dont wanna see him get caught by the police >__<
I also made a mental note earlier to try watching BOF, but that too is still un-achievable. I really need my dorama-muse back, wherefore art thou?

p.s: She's actually very unhappy and jealous at the thought of Miroticon in BKK this 27th and 28th. And to think that SYC isnt gonna be available coz the girls are going to the very damn concert makes her depress even more. So she turns to Yamapi for comfort. Well, lets see what happen after 28th then :P

p.s.s: It's unachievable to write in 3rd person POI when you're fangirling you know. Decide to drop it for now. Might resume it later when she feels emo all over again.

it isnt just me and you

From BH, June 16 2009.

PASANGAN Bianca Cotta dan Carlos Eduardo de Melo baru 24 jam meraikan perkahwinan mereka dalam majlis resepsi bertemakan Bali yang dihadiri 300 tetamu apabila mereka berlepas ke Perancis untuk berbulan madu.

Pasangan keluarga terkenal di Brazil yang setaraf bintang dalam bidang masing-masing iaitu perundangan dan perubatan itu, percaya bahawa percutian indah menanti mereka ketika menaiki penerbangan Air France AF 447 dari Rio de Janeiro ke Paris petang Ahad 31 Mei lalu.

De Melo, 33 bertugas sebagai peguam manakala isterinya, Cotta, satu-satunya anak profesor kejuruteraan terkemuka, adalah seorang ahli dermatologi yang baru menamatkan pengajian sebagai pelajar cemerlang di sekolah perubatan yang dihadirinya.

Ketika media di negaranya masih lagi menyiarkan laporan dan gambar menarik majlis perkahwinan gilang gemilang mereka keesokan harinya, pasangan pengantin baru itu sekali lagi menjadi bahan berita apabila disenaraikan antara mangsa 214 penumpang dan 12 anak kapal terbabit dalam nahas Airbus 330 yang menjunam ke Lautan Atlantik.

“Majlis mereka sungguh indah,” kata Cris Castelo, penganjur majlis dan juga rakan kepada pengantin perempuan, yang dipetik media tempatan.

“Walaupun terbabit dalam nahas itu, sekurang-kurangnya mereka dapat bersama orang yang paling disayangi selama sehari. Semoga mereka bersemadi dengan aman.”

Ketika pesawat AF 447 itu meninggalkan Rio de Janeiro yang dikenali dengan keindahan pantainya dan Pergunungan Sugar Loaf kira-kira 7.30 malam Ahad itu, ia langsung tidak menunjukkan sebarang petanda luar biasa.

Lebih separuh daripada penumpang yang menaiki pesawat berkenaan adalah dari Brazil dan Perancis selain penumpang dari 30 negara lain termasuk antaranya adalah lima penumpang Britain dan tiga penumpang Ireland.

Pesawat itu membawa 61 rakyat Perancis, 58 rakyat Brazil, 26 dari Jerman, sembilan masing-masing dari China dan Itali.

Selain pasangan pengantin baru itu, penumpang yang lain termasuklah seorang putera Brazil, seorang budak lelaki berusia 11 tahun yang baru pulang dari sebuah sekolah berasrama di England, seorang konduktor muzik dalam perjalanan ke sebuah konsert di Ukraine, pelancong Eropah, pelajar, ahli akademik dan eksekutif perniagaan termasuk ketua Michelin Amerika Selatan.

Dalam pesawat yang sama juga adalah sekumpulan 10 jurujual sebuah syarikat elektronik Perancis bersama pasangan mereka yang menerima hadiah percutian ke Brazil berikutan kecemerlangan prestasi mereka dan seorang rakyat Jerman yang dalam perjalanan pulang untuk mendapatkan dokumen yang diperlukan bagi perkahwinannya dengan seorang wanita Brazil yang baru ditemuinya.

Pesawat terbabit dikemudi Kapten Marc Dubois, 58, seorang daripada juruterbang paling berpengalaman Air France yang sudah mempunyai rekod penerbangan selama 11,000 jam termasuk 1,700 jam bagi penerbangan jenis Airbus berkenaan.

Beliau yang berkahwin dan mempunyai dua anak yang sudah dewasa itu turut bercakap mengenai rancangan untuk mengubahsuai rumahnya berikutan beliau akan bersara tidak lama lagi tetapi masih sayangkan dengan pekerjaannya itu.

“Saya boleh bekerja sehingga berusia 70 tahun,” Dubois pernah memberitahu kepada rakan-rakannya.

Sepuluh kakitangan sebuah firma pengedar peralatan elektrik berhampiran Paris yang menerima hadiah percutian ke Rio de Janeiro kerana terpilih sebagai wakil jualan terbaik syarikat, juga menyaksikan kegembiraan mereka berakhir dengan tragedi.

“Percutian itu sepatutnya satu hadiah kepada mereka dan pasangan tetapi bertukar menjadi satu tragedi,” kata Yvon Maguer, ketua pegawai kewangan syarikat berkenaan dalam satu temubual telefon.

“Mereka meninggalkan Brazil empat hari lebih awal daripada yang dijadualkan. Kini mereka semua sudah tiada. Anak-anak ditinggalkan tanpa ibu bapa mereka.”

Antara mereka yang terkorban ialah Stephane Artiguenave, 35, yang bekerja dengan CGE Distribution bersama isterinya, Sandrine, 34, yang meninggalkan dua anak berusia sembilan dan empat tahun, lapor akhbar harian Perancis, Le Parisien.

“Keutamaan kami sekarang adalah membantu keluarga mangsa untuk mengenal pasti apa yang dapat kami lakukan untuk mereka,” kata Maguer dari CGE Distribution berkenaan.

Dua mayat pertama tragedi berkenaan hanya ditemui kira-kira seminggu selepas kemalangan serta sejak operasi mencari bermula di Lautan Atlantik yang dikenal pasti sebagai lokasi nahas.

Agensi Perancis yang menyiasat nahas itu berkata bahawa peralatan kelajuan udara pada pesawat malang Airbus A330 itu tidak diganti walaupun syarikat pembuatnya sebelum ini mengesyorkan ia diganti. Namun, mereka juga memutuskan bahawa masih terlalu awal untuk menyatakan sama ada peralatan itu menyumbang kepada nahas berkenaan yang mungkin menyebabkan 228 penumpang dan krew maut.

Mayat dua penumpang lelaki pertama itu ditemui pagi Sabtu lalu kira-kira 70 kilometer dari selatan di mana pesawat 447 Air France itu kali terakhir dilihat berada 640 kilometer ke timur laut pulau Fernando de Noronha, di pantai utara Brazil.

Actually I saved this as draft like a week ago, in the midst of my finals. Decided to postpone posting it until my friends got back to Malaysia, well I dont want them to have uneasy feelings regarding boarding a plane LOL. However, my focus here isnt about the crash itself; it's about the people around us.

If you would actually care to read the news I posted above, I dont know whether you'll have the same thinking as I did when I read it. I mean, if we would only stop and take a glance of people around us, they actually have their lives ahead of them. Reading the news, I realized whenever I board a plane, within the big bird it carries many lives and hopes of its passengers. See how variety shows itself amongst their lives? Some were royalties, some were happily married, others were students, music conductors, hardworking dedicated workers etc etc. See, life isnt just about us.

I dunno if I'm making any sense here, I just thought I'd share what I feel when I first read this article last week. I hope I conveyed it well and it isnt clouded by laziness of this hols that creep inside me now.

p/s: new layout thanks to cik tembikai. subway this thursday? ;)

till then~

walk me out of here

Alhamdulillah. The exams are over. The results are out. FULL STOP.

**
This song always have special meaning to me, especially when I feel really down. Well it's not a song that will lift up the spirit, it's more like a tear-inducing song I guess. Every line and every part carries meanings for me. And yes although I've been bitching whining lately about needing a BF or whatever you call it, it's only part of it. This song carries more than that for me. Just saying so in case anyone might misinterpret this as pathetically pathetic of me. :/

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

Walk me out of here~

already there

Something is tugging her heart.
A reflection of losing something or someone that she holds dearly to her heart, despite she herself denies doesnt realize it.

She has heard it a lot, "you'll never miss the water until it's gone."
Well yeah she has been through that, literally when the water supply to her house was cut off TWICE already this year T.T and also non-literally (she cant think of the correct phrase, blah~). So that someone is just by your side, living everyday of your life with you and yet whenever he or she is gone, only then you realize how you miss him or her.
ROFL now this could make a good fanfictions story, dont you think?

Ooh yeah, on a different note, she has another two more papers to go before saying bye bye to her 2nd sem. Oh how she longs for 18th June to already knocking by her door. And she's having pre-post-exams syndrome already, feeling all way too lazy to read for her 60-marks final exam. She knows perfectly that she's just putting herself in hot water -_-

Excuse her while she has to drag herself to go and actually try to read something for her very own sake. OhEmGee. Dead.

great faith

She has Oral Pathology II Final Exams tomorrow. Too much stuffs to read, blame her for procrastinating. But really it's too much. When she was seating for her UPSR, her mom pasted this motivational poster in her room that reads: "To succeed I must force, not pamper myself." Pardon the weird English coz she translated it from BM.

What she needs now is GREAT FAITH.

GREAT FAITH

GREAT FAITH

GREAT FAITH

GREAT FAITH

GREAT FAITH