Showing posts with label random thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label random thoughts. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

betik oh betik





ni namenye tengah ngidam
nak makan buah betik..sejuk2 yang baru kuar peti ais tu..
pastu potong2..ngap sajor..lebeh enak jika dimakan bersame family selepas lunch dengan kari kepala ikan di hari minggu ahad yang ceria..
takpun betik yang pakcik depan library awam kangaq jual dengan lori putih tu..ade betik, jambu, ayaq nyok, lengkong, milo ais, tembikai, kopok twisties, air anggur perisa..

T___T
i wanna go home to my beloved buah betik!!

the road taken, and the one that wasnt

kadang2 rasa takut
rasa insecure
for what future holds

kadang2 rasa hopelessly helpless
kadang2 rasa I took the road that wasnt meant to be taken

betul, kalau kite xcube, kite takkan tau
tapi mcm mane kalau kite cube, and we found ourselves in the middle
we went too far already to go back, but yet the road is still long ahead in front of us
what are we gonna do then?

what future has in store for me, for everyone
how, where I will be..we will be in the next 5 years..10, 20 years?
sometimes that idea intrigued me, but most of the time I find it more intimidating than exciting

I hate changes, I hate insecurities
I need someone to be here with me.
Here, really here, right beside me.
and tell me to never lose faith
to keep pushing, and keep holding on
and to never let go
no matter how bad it looks like
how bad it's gonna be
to tell me
to always keep the faith.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Aux Champs Elysées

Just something that I keep replaying today. Still a failure to find its mp3 file though, and its trans. I just know this sing makes me happy, and I'm going to Paris someday!! as a result of watching Bonjour Paris today!

Aux Champs Elysees by Joe Dassin
it's an old song, but yeah I dig old stuff..I heart Alleycats, Carefree etc etc, so this isnt much different LOL

And Dayah, I'll stop you before you can say that you will meet MY crush in Paris someday. :P



EDIT:
found the mp3 and the trans! ;)
hey I was right, it's a beautiful song :D
and I'm going to Paris!!! but I still dunno when T.T

Friday, June 26, 2009

i have a dream

I just woke up..
And had this strange dream ever.
OK not that strange LOL
I was in a flight
and I see Changmin is reading a mag, he's seating sitting at the other side of the aisle, but his facing me..
Haha and I just know that we're heading to BKK for their Miroticon.
Well if I see Min there, that must means I'm in the business class as well LOL
He wears pastel pink shirt, shorts and a hat, and he looks effortlessly gorgeous!
Aah and that's all I remember LOL.

The weird thing is, when I woke up and I checked the updates, their airport pics in Incheon to BKK, there WAS a member wearing pastel pink shirt. Guess who? My Yoochunnie!! ^^ Hahaha so happy LOL xDD And leader-sshi was wearing the hat I saw Min wears in my dream..now that is weird but I aint complaining here ^_^

I guess I was thinking too much abt those who are lucky enough to fly together in one plane with the boys to BKK, and I dreamt about it instead..trase pathetic la plak, but hey a girl can dream right? And I just did, literally too.. :P

And oh, while browsing AKP tadik, read that MJ passed away. Dun listen to him much, but I like his song Black or White. RIP MJ.

Gonna go and fix myself breakfast..
Bye bye :)

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

it isnt just me and you

From BH, June 16 2009.

PASANGAN Bianca Cotta dan Carlos Eduardo de Melo baru 24 jam meraikan perkahwinan mereka dalam majlis resepsi bertemakan Bali yang dihadiri 300 tetamu apabila mereka berlepas ke Perancis untuk berbulan madu.

Pasangan keluarga terkenal di Brazil yang setaraf bintang dalam bidang masing-masing iaitu perundangan dan perubatan itu, percaya bahawa percutian indah menanti mereka ketika menaiki penerbangan Air France AF 447 dari Rio de Janeiro ke Paris petang Ahad 31 Mei lalu.

De Melo, 33 bertugas sebagai peguam manakala isterinya, Cotta, satu-satunya anak profesor kejuruteraan terkemuka, adalah seorang ahli dermatologi yang baru menamatkan pengajian sebagai pelajar cemerlang di sekolah perubatan yang dihadirinya.

Ketika media di negaranya masih lagi menyiarkan laporan dan gambar menarik majlis perkahwinan gilang gemilang mereka keesokan harinya, pasangan pengantin baru itu sekali lagi menjadi bahan berita apabila disenaraikan antara mangsa 214 penumpang dan 12 anak kapal terbabit dalam nahas Airbus 330 yang menjunam ke Lautan Atlantik.

“Majlis mereka sungguh indah,” kata Cris Castelo, penganjur majlis dan juga rakan kepada pengantin perempuan, yang dipetik media tempatan.

“Walaupun terbabit dalam nahas itu, sekurang-kurangnya mereka dapat bersama orang yang paling disayangi selama sehari. Semoga mereka bersemadi dengan aman.”

Ketika pesawat AF 447 itu meninggalkan Rio de Janeiro yang dikenali dengan keindahan pantainya dan Pergunungan Sugar Loaf kira-kira 7.30 malam Ahad itu, ia langsung tidak menunjukkan sebarang petanda luar biasa.

Lebih separuh daripada penumpang yang menaiki pesawat berkenaan adalah dari Brazil dan Perancis selain penumpang dari 30 negara lain termasuk antaranya adalah lima penumpang Britain dan tiga penumpang Ireland.

Pesawat itu membawa 61 rakyat Perancis, 58 rakyat Brazil, 26 dari Jerman, sembilan masing-masing dari China dan Itali.

Selain pasangan pengantin baru itu, penumpang yang lain termasuklah seorang putera Brazil, seorang budak lelaki berusia 11 tahun yang baru pulang dari sebuah sekolah berasrama di England, seorang konduktor muzik dalam perjalanan ke sebuah konsert di Ukraine, pelancong Eropah, pelajar, ahli akademik dan eksekutif perniagaan termasuk ketua Michelin Amerika Selatan.

Dalam pesawat yang sama juga adalah sekumpulan 10 jurujual sebuah syarikat elektronik Perancis bersama pasangan mereka yang menerima hadiah percutian ke Brazil berikutan kecemerlangan prestasi mereka dan seorang rakyat Jerman yang dalam perjalanan pulang untuk mendapatkan dokumen yang diperlukan bagi perkahwinannya dengan seorang wanita Brazil yang baru ditemuinya.

Pesawat terbabit dikemudi Kapten Marc Dubois, 58, seorang daripada juruterbang paling berpengalaman Air France yang sudah mempunyai rekod penerbangan selama 11,000 jam termasuk 1,700 jam bagi penerbangan jenis Airbus berkenaan.

Beliau yang berkahwin dan mempunyai dua anak yang sudah dewasa itu turut bercakap mengenai rancangan untuk mengubahsuai rumahnya berikutan beliau akan bersara tidak lama lagi tetapi masih sayangkan dengan pekerjaannya itu.

“Saya boleh bekerja sehingga berusia 70 tahun,” Dubois pernah memberitahu kepada rakan-rakannya.

Sepuluh kakitangan sebuah firma pengedar peralatan elektrik berhampiran Paris yang menerima hadiah percutian ke Rio de Janeiro kerana terpilih sebagai wakil jualan terbaik syarikat, juga menyaksikan kegembiraan mereka berakhir dengan tragedi.

“Percutian itu sepatutnya satu hadiah kepada mereka dan pasangan tetapi bertukar menjadi satu tragedi,” kata Yvon Maguer, ketua pegawai kewangan syarikat berkenaan dalam satu temubual telefon.

“Mereka meninggalkan Brazil empat hari lebih awal daripada yang dijadualkan. Kini mereka semua sudah tiada. Anak-anak ditinggalkan tanpa ibu bapa mereka.”

Antara mereka yang terkorban ialah Stephane Artiguenave, 35, yang bekerja dengan CGE Distribution bersama isterinya, Sandrine, 34, yang meninggalkan dua anak berusia sembilan dan empat tahun, lapor akhbar harian Perancis, Le Parisien.

“Keutamaan kami sekarang adalah membantu keluarga mangsa untuk mengenal pasti apa yang dapat kami lakukan untuk mereka,” kata Maguer dari CGE Distribution berkenaan.

Dua mayat pertama tragedi berkenaan hanya ditemui kira-kira seminggu selepas kemalangan serta sejak operasi mencari bermula di Lautan Atlantik yang dikenal pasti sebagai lokasi nahas.

Agensi Perancis yang menyiasat nahas itu berkata bahawa peralatan kelajuan udara pada pesawat malang Airbus A330 itu tidak diganti walaupun syarikat pembuatnya sebelum ini mengesyorkan ia diganti. Namun, mereka juga memutuskan bahawa masih terlalu awal untuk menyatakan sama ada peralatan itu menyumbang kepada nahas berkenaan yang mungkin menyebabkan 228 penumpang dan krew maut.

Mayat dua penumpang lelaki pertama itu ditemui pagi Sabtu lalu kira-kira 70 kilometer dari selatan di mana pesawat 447 Air France itu kali terakhir dilihat berada 640 kilometer ke timur laut pulau Fernando de Noronha, di pantai utara Brazil.


Actually I saved this as draft like a week ago, in the midst of my finals. Decided to postpone posting it until my friends got back to Malaysia, well I dont want them to have uneasy feelings regarding boarding a plane LOL. However, my focus here isnt about the crash itself; it's about the people around us.

If you would actually care to read the news I posted above, I dont know whether you'll have the same thinking as I did when I read it. I mean, if we would only stop and take a glance of people around us, they actually have their lives ahead of them. Reading the news, I realized whenever I board a plane, within the big bird it carries many lives and hopes of its passengers. See how variety shows itself amongst their lives? Some were royalties, some were happily married, others were students, music conductors, hardworking dedicated workers etc etc. See, life isnt just about us.

I dunno if I'm making any sense here, I just thought I'd share what I feel when I first read this article last week. I hope I conveyed it well and it isnt clouded by laziness of this hols that creep inside me now.

p/s: new layout thanks to cik tembikai. subway this thursday? ;)

till then~

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

already there

Something is tugging her heart.
A reflection of losing something or someone that she holds dearly to her heart, despite she herself denies doesnt realize it.

She has heard it a lot, "you'll never miss the water until it's gone."
Well yeah she has been through that, literally when the water supply to her house was cut off TWICE already this year T.T and also non-literally (she cant think of the correct phrase, blah~). So that someone is just by your side, living everyday of your life with you and yet whenever he or she is gone, only then you realize how you miss him or her.
ROFL now this could make a good fanfictions story, dont you think?

Ooh yeah, on a different note, she has another two more papers to go before saying bye bye to her 2nd sem. Oh how she longs for 18th June to already knocking by her door. And she's having pre-post-exams syndrome already, feeling all way too lazy to read for her 60-marks final exam. She knows perfectly that she's just putting herself in hot water -_-

Excuse her while she has to drag herself to go and actually try to read something for her very own sake. OhEmGee. Dead.

Friday, June 12, 2009

how a stranger reaches her heart

//on she comes.

She received this on her LJ earlier, and it makes her so happy :)

You're so cute. You make me laugh all the time. Your comments meant more to me than anyone, I don't know why either. Never failed to cheer me up. I don't remember us not being cool. I do not have much friends so my way of communicating maybe a little lack but if this makes you better, we're cool! You make me very happy too!

She's just sharing that. Not that she cares whether people are gonna understand it or not, as long as she does and that's what matters for all she cares. :)

//off she goes again.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

in and out

*pops in*

And so she's back. Having another four more paper to go for her finals, she really couldnt figure out why she's spending her sweet time still lurking around on the Net. She tells herself just to calm herself actually that she'll start reading for the next paper tonight. General Surgery and Anesthesia. Whoa. Sounds great huh? But it isnt as great as its name implies, when she has 5lectures for final materials PLUS a few more God-knows-how-much materials from the mid exams that she has already forgotten.

She told her bestie that she needs a BF. And another of her dear friend told her that she needs a BF too. Guess she isnt really alone after all :D. The question this time Mr.Shakespeare, is not 'to be or not to be'. The questions are who and when. On the nights that she couldnt sleep, she just wishes she has someone in her life, to text telling that she has trouble sleeping. She needs some assurance that someone will be there for her for meticulous things like that. Because she is like that. She's happy for simple, little things and she's jealous and upset for simple, little things as well. Childish, she knows. But it's true and she lives with herself long enough to accept that little girl in her that refuse to leave. She loves the girl by the way.

She watches people. She watches everyone in her life. Her old,dear friends. Her old, but not-so-dear-anymore friends. Her old crush(es). Her friends now in her life. Her crush now in her life. Everyone. Some of them really have grown; grown maturely that she's embarrassed to compare herself to them. Some has grown wide and afar that she feels sorry she couldnt keep things the way they were. Some grows closer to her, but some drifts apart as well. Sometimes she wonder what can she do, and whether she really cant do anything or she just doesnt want to. But those are (or in some cases, were the ones that she cares for. She cherishes the old time, she appreciates the present. But she doesnt value it enough to start studying instead of writing this.

She keeps thinking. Pondering. Watching.

And off she goes.

*pops out*